My friends Connie Williams and Sheila Tidwell took some beautiful photos during Mom's homecoming service yesterday. They are so precious to me! The above photo is one of my favorites of Sam, Me, Mike and Derek saying our last good-byes to Mom.
Then there is this precious one of Dad, about to be driven away after saying good-bye to his love of almost 65 years.
How do you say good-bye to someone who has been in your life for so long?
It just feels weird to try and go on with our lives now. I mean... hello.... someone's missing. How do you go back to your daily routine and not constantly feel like you're forgetting something. It almost feels... disrespectful. Sigh..... I'm sure I'll find a way. I know that I can't mourn forever. And I know she wouldn't want me to. She was way too practical for that. I remember one time being upset about someone passing and Mom just said, "Oh well Marcia, that's just life. People die." And I remember thinking, "Geez Mom, have a little compassion!"... but she WAS compassionate. She was just incredibly realistic and practical and didn't romanticize anything. So I can hear her voice telling me now, "Good grief.. what good is it going to do anyone for you to sit around and feel sad? You gotta get up and LIVE girl."
So I'm going to give myself a few more days.
And then... I'm going to try to get back to living.
Because she would think I was just being silly if I didn't. :-)